Reality doesn't seem to last long

You never know what someone's heart is carrying.
- The title was a quote that a three year old told me, believe it or not.
 
- Anyways, this is Jack's backstory, since all of you are doing one lol. @i-love-stan-the-man @lady-disturbia @fancytrancy @plasticlizard022 @baconluver143
 
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Tears ran down Jack's face, the burn of the embarrassment nothing compared to the burn of his father's fists on his body.
 
"You ignorant, little, child!" the drunk man screamed in between hits.
 
From what little nine-year-old Jack could see, through the salty tears and his bruised and puffy eye, his dad's knuckles were swollen, like he'd been punching anything that he'd saw. That's what it sure looked like, considering that there were broken glass vases on the ground and the pillows from the small fabric couch were scattered around them.
He had stumbled home, drunk and angry, with something in his hand...a butter knife? But..it looked sharper than a butter knife, and smaller. He'd dropped it on the couch before moving over to the boy and grabbing him, while he was hiding behind the bookcase.
Jack continued crying. He'd been beaten before, but tonight was worse than usual. He tried to protect himself by weakly raising his scarred, bruised, and bleeding arms over his head.
 
His dad must've been extremely sensitive, for some reason. He grabbed him by the wrists and yanked him up, forcing him to look into his burning brown eyes that swirled with chaos and hate. The pupil was contracted in disgust, and Jack was slammed against the wall with indescribable force, almost cracking his jaw.
 
Jack didn't understand, still. "What did I do-"
 
"You fu.cking annoying idiot!" Dad screamed. "I hate you! I hate you!"
 
The phrase was repeated in the little boy's mind a million times, digging deep into it like someone buried it with a shovel.
Jack gave up on trying to escape, and hung limply in his father's veiny arms as he became unconscious.
 
Dad dropped him to the ground and picked up the knife, slitting his own throat and watching as thick, red blood dripped down his chest and arms.
He smiled before he fell to the ground as well, glad that he was away from the divorce and the woman he had still loved that moved away from him, the car crash, the death, the debt, his son that he loathed, and the pain.
 
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Jack woke up in the morning in the neighbors apartment, that was next to his old one. He had been cleaned up a bit, but there were still scars lining his arms and decorating his body. One of his sapphire eyes that matched his mother's, was duller than the other, damaged from the punches.
"Where am I?" asked the weak and shaking boy.
 
"Oh, hello Jack," said the neighbor. "My name is Ms. Cill, but you can call me Alice." She smiled kindly, each of her teeth perfectly straight and white. "I came to pick you up after what happened last night with your dad."
She didn't mention that the police had came to investigate and help as well, just to make it a bit easier for him to understand. Alice had always known that Mr. Hives wasn't to be trusted for too long...
 
He looked a bit sad and confused. "Okay..." Jack whispered.
 
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Years later, at age seventeen, Jack remembered absolutely nothing. He'd smoked and had had enough pills to forget about the night when his father committed suicide, and even his pale scars on his body couldn't spark a memory.
He remained with Alice, his new caretaker and mother, until she died (for reasons unknown by Jack) when he was fourteen. When he stood at her lonely funeral that had only one guest, he quietly thanked her, in tears, for everything. He stared at her thin and wavy blonde hair and her long eyelashes that extended beautifully from her face.
This eventually led him to becoming bipolar, as he quickly became frustrated without help from anyone when he could not do something right. When he would imagine Alice helping him every day, her soft and kind voice that was nonexistent in reality slowly deepened to his father's harsh voice telling him to injure those that he disliked. Even though Jack didn't know who it was, he obeyed the orders and attacked four people, killing two of them. Jack became unattached from real life around him and became his own person, along with the dead hallucinations in his head.
Now, in the mental asylum, he realized another reason why he loved Alice so much, her name was so beautiful and it reminded him of his second mother.
 
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- Psh it sucks but ignore it, I got rushed towards the end lol. But...there you go I guess. XD
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Coldplay. Fun. Imagine Dragons.

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Vivo.

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Vivo.
- Hello. I've had an interesting past week or so, it's been odd but, it's not that bad. I haven't retaken any of my math tests because my teacher keeps putting it off, and I currently have a B in math. I'm working on a science project with my friend, and it's going well. Finals are coming up, which I've never done before...wish me luck? I got ice cream today, which was nice.
 
- That's basically it. I'm babysitting my younger sister tonight, I should be on all night. Message me, role play with me, whatever you want.
 
xx.
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"Only losers don't have friends!" Oh. Okay. I'm a loser then.
- Hi. Rough week for me. Grades are getting lower, friends are kind of ignoring me, I've been staying up way too late to finish homework and stuff. I'm more tired than I should be and I'm just angry at everything. If I'm not on Polyvore for a few days or hours or a week or something, then I'm probably still trying to get on top of everything that's happening. I mean, maybe my friends aren't ignoring me and I'm just imagining it. Maybe my homework is easy but I'm just too idiotic to understand. Maybe I'm tired because I dream all day long now. I just can't pay attention to anything, and I'm trying not to break down.
Don't feel bad for me. I'm just pathetic.
 
- Sorry for not making sense either...
 
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Being rejected is the cost of being insane.
(Patient)
Name- Jack Hives
Age- 17
What did you do- Attacked four people with a kitchen knife and killed two of them, also tried to resist being imprisoned by clawing and injuring anyone (or anything at all) that was in his way.
Diagnosed with- Bipolar disorder. He also occasionally has haunting hallucinations of the dead, but nobody ever gets close enough to him to talk to or ask him.
Personality- Intelligent when he wants to be or has enough control to be, angry, silent and revengeful, and unattached from reality: which is how he likes it (most of the time). If it isn't Jack's way, it's nobody's way.
Bio- Jack Hives is a confusing and terrifying young man. In the rare moments when he's in a good mood, he will be your best friend. But he is also impatient and has an extremely short temper, if you cross the line with him, he'll act without thinking.
He always seems to hallucinate when he is happy, and the illusions of people and sounds usually mess up his thoughts and end up being disastrous for him and anything around him. Nonexistent voices of screaming people urging him to attack the "murderers" is what caused him to injure and kill the innocent adults, only moments after someone smiled to him. Although Jack seems tough and harsh, the most simple things make him happy. Most people actually prefer to see him depressed, because he doesn't do as much damage as he does when he is in a good mood. For him, it's dangerous to be light. Darkness is always the answer.
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Being rejected is the cost of being insane.
Random title, ignore it.
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Name- Marina Cord (prefers to be called Dr. Cord)
Age- 19
Professional preference- An orderly?
Bio- Marina, as a younger teenager, was a rowdy and annoying girl. When both of her parents were killed in a building fire when she was fifteen, she was forced to grow up and shut up. As an only child, she lived alone until she came to work as an orderly in the mental hospital.
When her parents died, she felt like she was going insane, almost. She relied completely on them for almost everything, and now it was as if the ground had been ripped out from under her. Marina is very talented at her job, especially because she knew how it felt to be alone and confused.
She wears her long hair in a tight bun now, her blue eyes dim. Marina is calm and almost seems emotionless around other people, but she has a soft side when it comes to the mentally sick.
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I need a little color in my black and white life.
- Hi, what's up? I'm bored, and have no homework. I think I'm gonna go run outside cause its (finally) nice out there.
 
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Don't let them [for]get you.

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Don't let them [for]get you.
"I'm just tired."
 
Just tired of the sadness.
Just tired of the anger.
Just tired of the ache.
Just tired of the pain.
Just tired of the tears.
Just tired of the hiding.
 
I'm just...tired.
 
- One of my best friend's mom died from cancer a few days ago. I'm positive everywhere I go, but somehow, my mind always trails back to her...it's like having an irreplaceable hole in your heart.
 
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Audition.

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Audition.
What house?: Ravenclaw :DD

Name: Liz

Age: 12

A little bit about you: Uhm, I like Fun, Imagine Dragons, alternative music, chocolate cake, swimming, anything minty, and art. :D

Want to be a prefect?: Sure! ((:

Why you want to be a part of this: Because I was invited and I AM OBSESSED WITH HARRY POTTER. IT. IS. MY. LIFE.

Do you think your house will win the house cup?: Yes? No? Maybe so? (^.^;)

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Everyone wants you to shut up!

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Everyone wants you to shut up!
- Yeah, failed the test I was worried about. Whatever. XD
 
- I also am going on a cruise tomorrow, and I'm trying to fit in as much Polyvore as I can. I'll be on as late as possible, but we're leaving for Miami at six tomorrow morning. (eastern time zone)
 
- Wish me luck. No wifi, no service, NOTHING. Every call and text = $$$. So except for in Puerto Rico, I'll be gone from Polyvore. Which is depressing. XD
 
- Anyways, hai. What's up? :D
 
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